Life Lesson

Here is what I have finally learned about myself in the past 45 seconds. It's really accumulated through the years but it finally "clicked" as I contemplated all of the possible new changes that might lie ahead for me and my family.

I let fear dictate what I do or don't do. I went into the arts because I was afraid I couldn't do anything else. I was afraid of something being hard. I was afraid of being challenged, so I discarded anything that triggered my fear or that might open the possibility of my looking inept. Everyone has always told me how smart, how sharp I am, and yet, I remember butterflies and anxiety in every math class I've ever taken. I remember crying after school or class because even as I tried, it didn't make sense. I bumbled through it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm passionate about writing and I know I'm good at it. I love art, but I'm mediocre at best. (Others beg to differ) However, if I could do it again, I'd do every hard thing I avoided.

But I can't, so from now, it's time to face the hard things and not run from them.